It's called the quiet game.
After all what I've said in the afternoon, it seems like it doesn't touch you.
Having all these feelings breaking my emotions apart.
I started talking to you. But now, you keep so quiet.
I lied on yr shoulder, did you feel anything?
My reason for tonight is to be there for you and that hope we can make things alright again.
I don't know if you really want me to accom you. But I did.
I am counting down. 6

Labels: When the cold night comes by

Waking up to know that you'd be leaving me alone. Afterall, there isn't someone who can protect me and make me feel safe?
Well, I shouldn't have layed on you so much in the first place. I should continue and be that strong women you all see.
Why so much tears from ytd? Were they anything? What was the "right next to you" thing about?
Silly me. Doing so many things I've never did and trying to cheer u up.
Give you cards
Make breakfast
Watch you sleep
Pack yr bed
Fold hearts
Naggin at you to do rj?
Maybe I'm just not good enough to make you happy.
Im sorry I loved you so much that I am doing this.

Labels: I miss you

I'm impressed you can still ask why I didn't even look at you.
So you think every time you hurt me and the next day I'd forget it?
So you think just becox you are a mother you can hurt me like this?
Who exactly are you?! Can you stop? Stop doing this to me! I rather you leave me alone.
Why did you give birth to me and now hurt me so bad?
I could have been a cheerful and wonderful child, who grows up to be someone powerful.
Why must I have such a background?
I quit you.
I don't need you. You won't change


I would never forgive you. You made me died many times
You made me insane, I'm now infested with hurt. I feel hatred yet fear.
1st suicide:" I slit my fucking pretty wrist and arms with yr scissors"
2nd suicide:" sat on the balcony and holding yr meat knife"
3rd suicide:" bang my head on the wall till my lips bleed and consume 1bottle of cough syrup with 10 panadols"
4th suicide:" ate 8 panadols and half bottle cough syrup"
How many more times do you wanna play with my life? A 13yr old kid can suicide till she's 19!
What the fuck have you done to her?
How do you want her to forgive you when you hurt her so fuckjng deep?!
What exactly have you done!?


NatSoh, I depise you muchly. Why don't you push yrself to yr limits?!
You used to be a strong powerful dominant women. You were a leader, what happen now?
You seem so lazy, taking yr parents money and yet working so many part time jobs previously.
If you wanna earn much money, be prepared to sacrifice yr time!


I could work hard and be rich starting from now. But what have I not dared?
If I could, I would try.
But i am not ready to do dry sales.
Things will not remain the same if I choose to work this path I know.
Everything will change, and events may no longer be my strong point.
If I can make a wish, it would only be, let me have happiness as well as wealth and a happy family:/

Labels: Pathetic life